To Be Present
Water rushes over me
But I’m not here,
I’m going over my to-do list,
Thinking what I’ll eat for dinner,
When I have to leave for work tomorrow.
Be here now
A gentle reminder
To quiet the mind
And be present to the water,
The soap, the shower.
Feel the droplets running over my skin
Little drops leaking into closed eyes
Hearing the squish of bubbles in my hair.
I’m calming, being present.
Writing a poem in my head,
Picking a book to read,
Rushing through the shower
To get back to life.
This is life
No matter how small
Everything I do is part of my life.
I cheat myself of minutes
If I spend time
Wishing I was doing something else.
Even if I don’t like or want to do something
It’s still part of where I am right now
So it would behoove me to
Be where I am without too much judgment.
This may be the greatest lesson of my life
As well as the most difficult lesson.
To be where I am,
While at the same time moving forward.
One moment at a time.
This is not something new for me, this idea of being in the present moment. It’s something I’ve been moving towards for a long time. Something I thought I had mastered when I had Lyme disease and was bedridden for a year. But for me at least it is a lot easier to live in the present when my only responsibility is my own health. Once I was better and back to work and school, it became much more difficult to stay in the present because I had responsibilities to other people. So I went back to the beginning so to speak and am still working on being where I am. I’ve learned to take it one moment, one breath at a time. How are you living in the present?