More Than Cardboard
Twisted, mixed and turned around
I’m looking in the mirror
To see what really lies
There beyond my eyes.
I’ve become the cardboard
Cutout I place over my life,
Become the stories I create
To make sense of what I don’t understand.
Forget about accepting,
Being with what we don’t know
Exploring just for the adventure
Without needing to know.
Answers, while comforting
Remove all sense of wonder,
Maybe it’s not about the answers
It’s about the questions
How dirty I can get while
Searching in the muck
For inner light and truth.
Test out the waters
Even if their rough
To see just what it feels like
To be a part of all this stuff.
In the moments when I want to run
When the fear bubbles in my stomach
When I’d rather stuff and cover
It’s challenging to be inquisitive
And want to explore those emotions
As much as any other,
Just to see, have the experience.
I’ll have to try to keep moving forward.
Another technique I have found to be helpful in times when I am struggling is to investigate my troublesome emotions. Instead of getting stuck in them, to look at them as if I am an investigator trying to find out as much as possible. Get into them and really feel what it feels like to have this emotion. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn’t. But I keep trying, and that’s what really matters!
What are some emotions you would investigate?