Loss

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Loss

There are two things that happen

When I lose something

One is I get really sad

Tears, sobbing the works.

Two is anger,

Rage at life for taking it from me

Anger at myself for getting attached.

 

Anger and sadness get all mixed

Up inside my head

Tearing me up and ripping me apart

Until I’m a ball of shreds

Tangled up and limp

Laying on the floor

Devoid of all energy.

 

To be completely emptied

To have heaved forth

All that was inside

To painstakingly cut out

Every piece of myself

Leaving an empty shell

Wandering around the planet,

I am open once again

An empty vessel to be filled

A canvas to be painted.

 

I guess it’s part of living

The falling, letting go

Restructuring of all beliefs,

If they are never tested

How will we ever know.

In the midst of all the testing

The questioning and pain

We’re unable to see

What we’re destined to know.

It won’t be until later

After those

Wounds begin to scar

As we heal ourselves

With patience

And breathing as we go,

That we’ll begin to understand

All that we need to know

 

And realize at once

That all we know is nothing

And we understand even less

But that’s all we really need

To be our very best.

 

Loss, happens everyday. We lose friends, family, jobs, homes, hope. Loss is an inevitable part of living. It’s what we do with that loss that counts. But here’s the catch, that doesn’t mean therefore we have to accept loss gracefully and joyfully. We are allowed to be pissed, allowed to be sad, depressed even. Those can last as long as they need to, the key is figuring out how long you really need to feel those emotions. Recognize when you have dropped from feeling into wallowing and make a choice to change it. This is one of those shitty difficult parts of human living, luckily we have a whole life-time to practice! Lucky us. 

What helps you get through loss of any kind?

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